http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/ Smiles In The Dark Thu, 06 Mar 2008 19:40:00 PST http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2008. http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/archive/7.html Fri, 07 Mar 2008 00:37:00 GMT In the Major Key Well, I'm certainly at a completely different point in my life than I was the last entry I wrote. To begin, It's the beginning of march, and I got quite sick shortly after Christmas, causing me to have major panic attacks, and all of my old OCD phobias to return. It's been chaotic, but if it's done anything good, It's that number one, I rid myself of the negative influences in my life, (or rather, they rid themselves of me). To explain, I don't know what happened in the two weeks I was out of commission for being sick, but Greg, Courtney, and Alie all decided to... (more) http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/comments?id=7 http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/archive/6.html Tue, 30 Oct 2007 21:57:59 GMT Faces In Condensation "Great adventures, still posted at your station. Always on about the day it should have flyed You know you're better than this Come make a start, got your heart in a headlock. You say too late to start, got your heart in a headlock, Afraid to start with your heart in a headlock, You know you're better than this." - Imogen Heap So, I'm on the train coming back from chicago, and I decide to listen to Imogen. I should have known it would hit me. It always happens when I haven't listened to her in awhile, and I'm having troubles. I have an epiphany. Imogifany.... (more) http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/comments?id=6 http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/archive/5.html Sun, 23 Sep 2007 07:32:49 GMT The Sky Is Grey And It's Been Raining All Day I think it's probably time to organize some thoughts. Update since I've last written; I broke up with Ryan, but still decided to remain friends with him. I find it's positive, and he is less annoying in smaller doses. He still has a lot of growing up to do, and I need to stop waiting around for him to do it. I will still remain close with him, I'm sure. I regret some of the things that I said about Greg. I hung out with Greg in Hartland again for the first time in a long time. We did some reminiscing, and I kind of realized how many good... (more) http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/comments?id=5 http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/archive/4.html Mon, 10 Sep 2007 06:20:19 GMT This Weather's Bringing It All Back Again "Afraid to start with your heart in a headlock, I don't believe any of it" It's one of those nights. Those fatalisitic nights where it feels like everything is coming crashing down. Ryan and I are breaking up soon. mark my words. Mark them. He is not smart enough to date me. And he's slowly but surely becoming me again, which was my problem last time. I was right about relationships. If they fail once, they will never succeed again. He is sometimes a general annoyance to have around. We've grown apart. He is not deep, or intellectual, and he... (more) http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/comments?id=4 http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/archive/3.html Sat, 08 Sep 2007 23:40:37 GMT A Perfect Lie It's friday. I just got off of work, and here's what I think about work. I think that it's a good time to just turn yourself off and think. You don't really have to pay a lot of attention, it's kind of robotic, so I just pretty much thought all day. I loved it. Here is my dilemma. I feel like life is not moving. Without the rigid structure of Highschool, I feel like I'm just fucking off all the time. I'm not. I've worked 32 hours this week, and I have classes on top of that. But it FEELS like I'm headed nowhere, doing nothing. I feel lost. I don't really FEEL anything.... (more) http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/comments?id=3 http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/archive/2.html Mon, 03 Sep 2007 23:26:04 GMT Get Out The Abacus And Count This Here I am again. It's now six thirty, and I refuse to leave my house. I woke up only a short two hours ago, and have done absolutely nothing productive since. I've avoided hanging out with anyone, including my boyfriend, who I have not seen in over a week now. Why? God knows. I just don't have it in me to do anytihng right now. I'm sure that I'll hang out with people later, though. But for now, I'm content in my coccoon. And I don't think that there's anything wrong with that, contrary to popular belief. My parents believe that every minute spent not... (more) http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/comments?id=2 http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/archive/1.html Fri, 31 Aug 2007 15:25:50 GMT You Could Stand Under My Umbrella... So... I've decided that it's finally time for Smiles in the Dark to be back up and running. But I wanted a clean slate, so I started a completely new one. God knows if I'll even tell people about it. But I've been not blogging for long enough now, and I've really missed it. This is a big time, we're all going through some pretty big shit, you know? Wednesday was the supposed biggest day of my life other than my wedding. I started COLLEGE. Not hardcore college like everyone else, god knows I'm not good enough for that. I go to community college.... (more) http://inthedark.blogdrive.com/comments?id=1